Sometimes I wish that we could just go back to virtual school. At least when everyone had to stay home, I had a reason for being left out. Now that we’re back in class, I face the same thing every day. Not being part of any group. The others staring at my clothes and shoes as though they’re not good enough. No one wants to talk to me – when I even try to start a conversation, they mutter a few words without looking at me and walk off.

And Instagram makes everything worse. Why do I have to keep seeing all their perfect lives? Why am I even on Instagram? Why do I do this to myself? The more I see, the more I want to lie in bed all day. And my parents don’t understand. They just think I’m lazy. They never understand.

But there is an influencer I follow who gives me some inspiration. Today she’s talking about feeling better by getting outdoors. So you know what? I’m going to do it – I want to feel better, even if it’s just for today. I’m going to pack some water and snacks in my backpack, grab my old bike, and go for a ride. I’ll take my phone so I can snap some shots or make some videos, but I’m promising myself not to look at social media. Period.

On the Road

The air is crisp. The scenery is the same as the last time I was on this path, but this time it somehow feels new. The sun is out now after the rain, and it makes the raindrops look like sparkly diamonds on the leaves. It’s nice. And I like the trees. They are so quiet and strong.

I start to feel energized just a few blocks from home. Maybe there is something to the idea of getting outside? I usually feel better after exercise, even though I have to haul myself off the couch to do it. The people at school are still jerks, but right now they don’t matter. I feel good in my own skin, more confident and more at peace.

I think I’ll go home and post some of the pics I took. I may even tag Riley in the one with the creek. And who knows? Maybe I will invite some people from school out with me next time. But even if they don’t come, I like this feeling, so I’ll ride by myself – just me with nature.